oN Campus

When I reached college that day at 10 i could see that a lot of people had turned up , so many cars , so many bikes . But the college was empty , with not even a soul to be seen around . But i knew they were there , battling with math and logic problems , wrestling to get the vocab and comprehension under control . Then finally they slowly began to disperse , and the wait for the short list began . The mood was one of mild tension , but since it was only the first company , i'd have to say the mood was positive all around . And it helped that almost everyone who appeared for the test was shortlisted .

Now began the preparation for the interview . Nithu was tensed and asked for my help , which i ofcourse gave away without much prompting ( ofcourse to any girl ) . It was fun reading the HR forms completed by most of them . Anitha had written that her hobby was to take care of the fish in her fish tank . Well then I began to help rajani write the longest sentence of her life.. which naturally no one could comprehend.

Then at 9 , everyone clambered into the CGPU hall and they dropped the bombshell ... 197 placed...And they began reading out the names of each .. the list had very few surprises , with everyone who would be expected to be place amond the first lot were picked . Mag got , minu got , aish got , the family - punjabi, nami and bugz got .. I was happy ... But i could see a lot of disappointed faces...
Better luck next time guys..

I hope i can atleast appear for one of them...

Why Do We Do ?

Relationships . They are always hard to maintain . My strong belief is that for a relationship to work , atleast one of the parties involved has to make serious effort at holding it together . Thus is the nature of people that they do a lot of things , harmfull to the relationship , hurting , with or without knowing . Sometimes they do things , which they might have recognised as hurting if their heads were clear from everything else . Logic and clarity of minds are things which elude a lot of us , and even when that star does shine upon us , it does with varying intensities and very little dependability . So we end up doing things you know is going to hurt your friends , but that call for check from within is muffled and faint , coming from deep inside , from underneath the heap of emotions clogging the immediate proximity of the conscious mind . So why do we do those things , we might never find out . Some even do not realise they are doing things , which might have even put themselves to shame , if someone was good enough to them to point their mistakes out to them , even at their own cost . But very few of us have got friends of that depth and sincerity . Atleast I am glad I am a one among the lucky . Mag you are the best friend I have got in college . I am so glad i have you to look over me and chaperone my morality (please excuse the usage!!)

Inside Out

Well , how well do each of us think we know each other . We might make the common mistake of thinking that we know quite a lot about ourselves . We think we have ourselves figured out , after hours and hours of contemplation and self exploration , which has finally led us onto the misconclusion that we are basically all geniuses .

Then comes the difficult task of putting all that you know you are onto a two sheet pinned form of a curricum vitae or resume . You sit down in front of your PC or a piece of blank paper and start writing . Sure , name , address , phone number . You have got no problems there they are , perfectly written , in the precise format , aligned well to one side , looking all neat and tidy . So , now that the beginning came out so good , you tend to think that the rest would turn out to be a piece of cake . So Academics . Then it strikes you , how bad a measly 62 odd aggregagte marks looks on paper . Well what can you say , its college and you still could make the cut offs for the campuses . 10th and 12th were fine with marks in the mid 70's .

Well now you stop for a second and think . All that has been written are mandatory , and the interviewer would not even glance at it once . So now you have to write about something that will catch the attention of the interviewers and would turn out to my advantage . Lets blow them away with my variegated arsenal of proffessional software suites . Photosphop . Yeah , i have used it , but its like saying you have used Anakin Skywalker's Light sabre to open a bag of chips . But maybe i could even then impress them if they caught onto it . Operating Systems are fine too , since i have atleast once tried my hand at all windows versions and a couple of linux ones . Skills are a mess . What ever you are gonna write , they are going to kill you for it . So make your own life sentence as light as possible . Finally comes a section to give your interests and achievements , and thats when you realised you have never done anything in your life . And how can you write your main interest is in girls . lol . Well think hard on it ... me still am...

~when you are living lost lives , all this ceases to matter `

Lost Lives~

"So . Talk"
"Well , what are your career choices ? "
"Software field ofcourse , then maybe M tech and ofcourse I could just get married . I'm going to get my dad to marry me off to a gulf dude . Then I can work there . "

Well Rahi , best of luck for your plans to teach , get married and have a lot of great kids . Focus shifts now back to my career , for the first time after coming to college . What..? With everyone running about , buying books , attending talks , solving puzzles 24/7 , buying a tie then finding out they don't know to tie it and then running about trying to find someone who does . Well that reminds me that I have to learn to knot a tie and that too well .... ( Are ties costly?? )

So what is everyone so worried about suddenly amidst the fun and frolic of the leisurely paced college life? What could be so demanding as to break this spell ?

Well its season again for a little game of campus recruiting , and ofcourse , the guys are quite right to be worried . And to tell the truth , I am a little worried too . Well its mostly clearing up ( I think) . I have been asking everyone their opinions on the matter , whether to try stick to the civil field or go along with the flow into the IT field . Maybe I'm meant to go into the IT field . But its still troubling me , whether would this make me happy ? Would I be able to get the life I want ? I have confided in some of you about my vague and superficial dreams . So you may think its not worth taking that big a risk for . Who knows . Where do each of you see yourself 10 years from now . But you have probably already prepared some answer to that ( be a satified human being , be a fore runner in the company you are working for and ofcourse make tons of money) . But what if it were 20 years and you were told to take a minute and really think it out without the cliches ? Think of how you will look back at your life at the half way point in your life . Would you have done the 'something' you had always wanted to do . Were you as happy as you expected you to be when you were 20 (now , and btw figure that out now ) . Well its your life and its just beginning , and many things are yet to be figured out properly . Think hard and clear about it .. And ofcourse more importantly THINK ON YOUR OWN ABOUT IT . Lifes lost... and you lost with it...