Saturday, April 08, 2006

The Complete Circle

Life has a way of coming back to the point where it all started. My life is at one of those points, where when I look I see everything I knew for a life to be over and a new world ahead of me. A world where nothing is certain and the possibilities are unending.

The time has come finally to review my life as I know it today. My college life. It is not an easy task, and everyone facing the same situation knows that. We have been dreading this point in our lives when we would have to say goodbye to our college lives. Maybe most of us have started realising this; that the end has finally come. There are no more climaxes left. The time has come for quite comtemplation, if we are ready for it and if we really want it.

I came into college with a friend, a close one for that matter and it was not as tough as it could have been. I did not have a new city to deal with, no new languages to master and not many adjustments to make to deal with almost the same kind of people I had been dealing with for the entire span of my school life. College started off as well as I could have hoped for, cool guys, cool gals and everything was right. But then life could not be that perfect for long and it definitely did not stay perfect. Infact it came crashing down on me and my memories of first year are not that fond either. The good points that I do remember is that I used to have a friend back then that I could tell everything and I could almost completely understand.

The next semester ushered in waves of new hope as I was starting to adjust to my condition of solitude and seemingly unending misery. The scenes that flood my mind are only of those lonely third hours that I used to cut everyday to have my lunch early before that rush to save me the dread of having lunch alone during the peak hour. It also left me my lunch hours mostly free to socialise :). Nothing worthwhile actually happened during that sem in college except for me getting my first supplis.

S4 was brighter and it was what I consider as the point of my recovery of sorts into what ever I am today. It was almost mid way into my college life but it never seemed to be so. Then came one of the most important events of my college life. Dhwani in CET always brings bad memories when it comes to personal emotions. The first one was during the initial crash and it did not help that I had to spend 3 complete days in college alone. The second one was right in the middle of my slowly deteriorating friendship with Devika, and actually helped the situation by bringing the friendship to a decisive point; the end. So I managed to spend my college life without much emotional inflow into my system, other than a little from Ashwina. She was quite supportive as I recall and I was completely grateful to her. So in short I only had my biker gang friends outside college.

S5 and further, is another chapter in my life, and the current one. Mag and me became the best of pals after the S5 IV and that us helped us both deal with our college lives better. I'd have to say I am happy with my life. We had an S5 and S7 tour. It was both fun and both of them had their share of after tour drama. 5 saw the fight between me and Nasib. 7 brought the split in civil to the surface. My life has been balanced in the last few sems. I've got two good friends I trust and treasure. Mag, who has stuck with me through everything and understands me perfectly. And Meenu who does not need much effort to understand me. My group is strong and we have a strong urge to have fun on what ever situations possible. There has been a constant line of movies and trips nearby.

There is still some more college life left in us. I hope to see them to the end and emerge out of the ashes strong, and a new man. Its been a pleasure.

4 comments:

lost optimist..^!^ said...

>:D<

Anonymous said...

Wow, absolutely Senti !! Great job, machu !

nryn said...

Good introspection man...summed up ur four years in a brilliant manner...

aravind said...

As life goes on, some come closer and some move farther apart.

As for me I didnt care much for my college life.